pissed off!

i am so pissed off.. here's the story.. i've been given a task to present a walkthrough to a group of client on one of the module. in which i really dont understand why it is us or me from helpdesk to do that in the first place.. aren't this suppose to be someone from the requirement/application group responsibility? i really dunno but since i am new and still under probation period.. there is always YES to any task given to me.. YES here mean nak tak nak ko kena buatla.. hmmm...

so my team lead give me this task.. ask me to present during the walkthrough and before that i need to test the process for each item in the list. during my testing, i did asked my lead why is it certain field need to be in the page. my lead said asked this person from application. i also dunno why its there. so i just assume it is there because it is from the vanilla version. its not mandatory and user can ignore it if it is not applicable to them.

so today, i went to see the apps lead to ask about a few thing. he say how do i answer to users if they asked me. i just tell him as above.. i will tell its from vanila yada yada.. but he said i am not supposed to answer like that. i need to know why its there.. then i asked him what is the answer to that since he's the one involve in the requirement session.. he said.. how am i supposed to know what to answer.. i was like .. what the f*** is he think i am.. nak test me pon agak2la kan.. kau tau jawapan kenapa, kau ada masa requirement gathering, kau bagitaulah aku apesal benda tu ada kat situ.. kenapa kau design benda tu macam tu.. BODOH!

i am frustrated. melayu dengan melayu pon tak nak tolong menolong. and we are in the same site.. i mean we are working for the same company serving in client site. he is supposed to provide me help when i am asking for. so that we (or the company) will not look stupid in front of client. i guess today is the first time i feel down and hopeless about my current job.

i want to go back to malaysia.. i want to work with my own country ... tension mode is ON!