purpose

what do you expect when you get married?

i am sad when i read my other haf blog. when you get married, is the only thing that you really want is sex, sex and everyday sex? am i being egoistic if i dont make love to my husband 2-3 times a week? am i not a good wife if i can't satisfy his sex need?

being a pregnant women (yeahhh i know he will think i use my pregnancy as reason) i do feel extra sensitive when someone close to me tell something like that. i try to let the things i read go as if nothing happen but i just couldnt ... to make it worst, he mentioned something about his ex.. can i complain here? yes i can.. its my blog... then to my other haf i hope when u read what i write below please do take some time to think about it carefully...

dear husband,

when i marry you 8 years ago, what i want is to have someone to share my life whether its happy or sad, i accepted you as who you are. and until now that purpose is still the same. i dont expect you to change to someone richer (if it happen than its a give from Allah), i dont expect you to be perfect. i can accept it when you hurt me a few time with your behaviour.

thank Allah, we are blessed with the healthy and lovely daughter... (and as you said, coming in 4 month ahead another bundle of joy).. i wonder what if we don't have any.. will you find someone else that can give you children. will i still be your wife?

when i read what you wrote recently, this questions come out ;-

•  if i do have special relation with other man out there.
• if i demand luxuary from you - money, house, cars, handphones, dining out in expensive restaurant every day/week, vacation overseas etc etc
• if i dont take care of the house, kids, your pride

but .. i make love to you every day as you wish..would you stop complaining?? if thats in your wish list then you are married to a very wrong person and you should go find someone that can really fullfill it.

~  have you think of the sacrifice i make when i make a decision to resigned and follow you here? do you think i like being unemployed and let you struggle with all the expenses? do you think i already forgot the 'scar' that i got when you hurt me a few time? ~

from your-not-perfect-wife