feeling down

i am feeling down.. mentally and emotionally down.. feels like whatever i am doing is not enuff.. to mr hubby if you read this... i feel like you are not supporting me in whatever i am doing right now.. doesn't matter it is me with my job or me with my obsession of getting slimmer or whatever... you are killing me softly - mmg kena la lagu ni di kala aku type entry ni.. muehehehhe

yesterday.. i was talking to mr hubby on how i want to be slimmer as before.. i check my weight masa hantar DJ check mata di klinik previous night and to my surprise my weight is already 52kg.. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sungguh tak disangka... so while talking to him.. he suggest me to continue doing the exercise i used to do before i start working.. but i argue that now i dont have enuf time to do it.. ye la mana sempat kan.. pagi bgn nak siapkan kids punya bekal, mandikan siapkan.. then masa tu la nak laundry, jemur kain, sapu sampah (kalo sempat).. and he said that is the only suggestion he can give.. emmmm...so not supporting right... sedih sedih sedih..

n this morning since he's not working, and kids also not going to school, i manage to have my regular 4 round jogging at berakas stadium.. tu pon x pueh hati 4 round je hari nih??? oklah kan dr takde.. and bila balik n report to him dengan bangganya.. know what he said to me??? mana boleh sehari je pegi dah kurus.. with his sarcastic look and don't care face.. arghhhhh...... i know that toooo but at least spare me your support justto cheer my day.. tu pon dia x bleh buat...

sometimes.. i do regret... the decision i made .. anyway.. life must go on.. hang on mimi... !!!